my lead role
oh my . life is so weird . my new thing is that we are living in our own movies..starring roles vary but we are always the lead character..so we have to make use of who else has been cast..very selfcentered..but its motivating me to do stuff that i wouldnt do..like ask for what i […]
feelin’ california ( good)
feeling good. had awesome productive busy day -worked -ran(2x’s)worked mtg-ran-met tc-met cole…great chats .ns is out of his place and staying with us and jodi..gk is hanging alot more…very nice to have him around again.went to the nic mtg last night saw ch..he seemed good.went with jd..dinner after then met deano les duex..felt too unsocial. […]
is it possible
is it possible to love a part of someone and despise another..i dont thinkit’s very healthy..but sometimes it is how i feel about my husband.i love him very much and maybe in some weird way..more than anyone..but i also cant stand the way he behaves sometimes and the weird insecure behaviour that he plays out […]
weekend sleepover
had a weekend sleepover at the house…so much fun. dinner and swimming and watching taxicab confessions and everyone macking ..or trying to at least.. funnywell. i am getting married. september..i guess.jd made m his ring and brought it to the show we went to this eve,looks awesome.a guy is very sexy with wed ringt on,;crazy […]
living an odd life
hmm. i am living an odd life right now.good confusing funny odd scary(A little)spent the entire week or so w/ sp mw cant articulate what that means right now..all very easy, though.saw coleycole this eve, totally lost it laughing at the meeting this eve.havent laughed like that in soo long.felt good. went to dinner then […]
wild week
woah. wild week. got a concussion on monday afternoon. slept and sick for a few days…hung out with ms all week.hes moving in..this weekend: went to re ‘s bday at thw wilt chamberlain house..it was weird and fun.i was with ns all weekend..hes been bummed, went to rodeo, selby AND sundowners.tonght i went to les […]
i am officially insomniatic(sp?)
i am officially insomniatic. 5 days w/out sleep. its insane. i just went for a swim..all misty out and shit. cool.my hearing is shot. its like i was at a concert last night and they (my ears) are still ‘ringing’ cept the ringing is loud and fuzzy and sharp-all at oncedont know quite what to […]
its not like i wasn’t warned
feel odd. havent reallly slept the last few days..a lot on my mind, i guess.or not enough maybe?good weekend..as sent me an email wondering what was wrong…i didnt have the strength to tell her i knew what she had said about me. i am already so hurt and perplexed by all this. hil and i […]
picked up mjk and ie at the airport
sunday i [picked up mjk and ie at the airport..then mjk and i hung out at the house. went to dinner with a fun group on sunday bh and dravens nephews camwe. dl was there..(swoon) ns hil ls ie Very nice to see Ls as ie has seemingly sequestered her to his place for months […]
solar plexus
this week has been like the opening of my solar plexus..i cried so hard and felt like it would never stop. i can still feel the feeling in my tummy of overwhelming grief..but it’s distant and calmer now. i howled like a dog yesterday. the hurt was deep. i felt like i finally realized how […]
dinner a the ivy.
went down to the beach last night- after an awesome dinner a tthe ivy. stayed out there..then came up and went to the cabin. going to have brunch with ie and ls and hil hopeflly. then holiday sales shopping. then to the beach as cs lent m ehis bitchin place for the weeknd.how kind and […]
oh mah gawd
jk sent me this this am..OH MAH GAWDfree francis bean.