trying it all again
i m trying it all again. everything. i am starting to write ( i promise myself) more consistantly and draw and paint. make stuff.i feel very off right now..but sort of in a good kooky kind of way. no sleep for 3 days/nights.almost like being on acid. a little less nerve wracking, though.i have to […]
serious insomnia
i have serious insomnia- havent slept more than 5 minutes…havent had this in forever. weekend wasgood.
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weekend easter…going to malibu for lunch etc and speaking at 6 30 . spent the night with ch and the met e at three and g . hate that meeting. well… i dont hateit.. i just think it isnt for me.
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mom here. .went to lunch with ns . then shopping. last night we went to rodeo. good. cept i felt very emotional due to menstrual situation. ch was alright.not overly nice to me . i got fed up last night. i was at dinner and everyone was giving me a hard time…why didnt i ever […]
mom is here
mom is here. good. she is staying with me… mjk is off to arizona.i am teaching though still..at the loft. ran this am. felt good as i havent run in days. dont know if i should go to ps or not.dont feel too much like it but it could be fun for a day. rodeo […]
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ok so this week has been extrodinarry. monday 60 days off cigarettes. ch was so sweet at the mtg. (rare) then to dinner with charlie finn and ns2 and jo. then to meet mjk at les duex..bad there bad scene. tuesday was good. i had so much fun with ch tues eve, we went for […]
full moon made me edgy
full moon made me edgy and weird. swam naked with the girls and did yoga under the full moon. cool outside at the house. weird energy.
world around seems odd
world around seems odd. good-odd. – as though i am enlightened or on drugs or sumthing. anyway, its all weird and tones of love and undertones of awareness and shifts in relationships that are so slight yet completely obivious to me. all good. a bit nerve racking at times, but good.
Still weak
monday still weak..went to dinner and les duex. tuesday went to whatever…met ch and left.and .went to his house and drank tea and stuff.i bought him a honey bear and some half half and he was so grateful..it was very sweet.ramn to the mtg this am. had a lovely breakfast with ie and ad and […]
ran twice today
so tired. ran twice today and worked and spoke – saw mp..looks very good. he came to ch to ‘see” me-fun, we had lunch..dward joined us too. went running and then worked again and had dinner with rr jg and solo? then met mjk – tea etc. then went to the movies?? yep. i went […]
yoga today
yoga today . gb or sidda. with e.
feel inspired to work
dont really feel like going anywhere this am. but i guess i should. hmm. feel inspired to work . just checked out a bunch of super cool sites and i wnt to try new stuff now. later i will. weird dreams. was going on vacation with mj and ie to hawaii..but i was pissed cause […]