fam-dam-ly
talking to my cousin on the phone; he is so great. i’m so happy we are connecting these days. when we were little we hated eachother. i even have teeth marks on my back from him biting me…we were in the same class all through school and he was a bit geeky..and i was a […]
taintme entry no.one
okay – i am so sick and i really wanted to start this off right..so i’ll have to start manana
such insight
i had some mistaken thoughts today. i think i have them alot. i get an idea in my mind and because i think about it so much, i believe it to be true. anyway, today it was this: living here is a bit like being in highschool. you can be cool and popular one day […]
call ‘n apologize
>listening to that jupiter song by train(?)it gets me feelling very …dramatic.no, just ..i dontknow..something..i feel alot of things at present.it’s so nice out today. got email from ca . he is so great. i can’t believe that i get myself in these weird mind frames that cause me to think such crappy thoughts. i […]
why i live here
i just remembered why it is i live hereI mean, i used to know why.. the whole time i was living at the beach and after i moved to this place..i was constantly grateful and filled with a sense of joy-sheerly from walking to my car and feeling the air and the warmth, in february […]
creative surge
i feel ready to *do* sumthing. i want to paint or finish my site, or just be creative. i get so trapped in this state, i end up organizing and thinking waaay too much. i am doing the procrastination thing by writing in here.Interseting concept:this online journal..i wonder what i am doing it for..i like […]
max the dog
this will be my litmus test morning to see how max and i deal with the hour long meetings and his where abouts during these daily events..Will he stay outside and be a quiet boy?Or will it be car-time for ole max/?hmmm..we shall soon find out
sundays
Every sunday i , like a total fuckin freak groupie, go to The dragonfly , in west hollywood. There is an eighties band called the spazmatics that play. i m in fake pretend lust with the lead singer. he usually wears a neckbrace and they cover songs by alot of bands i really cant stand.the […]
keep em seperated
just talked to dk for the first time in forever…he seem really good. busy and happy.think i am going to lcdp w/ j at 6:30 tonigt and then meet ab(maybe)for dinner later..or not.another party at canteena.i feel so out of it, sort of. feels lonely sometimes, going out to these parties. like everyone is so […]
john maeda is the coolest
john maeda , via his site and summations, has become my_mentor.(byproxy)and this is noteworthy beeecause….??welll..ive been a bit stuck in self pity nightmare , of late…embarrassingly due to my last client,James( who rules, btw) simply asking me for a link to a resume , so he cpould post it on his site.. Now, due to […]
john maeda is the coolest
john maeda , via his site and summations, has become my_mentor.(byproxy)and this is noteworthy beeecause….??welll..ive been a bit stuck in self pity nightmare , of late…embarrassingly due to my last client,James( who rules, btw) simply asking me for a link to a resume , so he cpould post it on his site.. Now, due to […]
stuck in the wrong fantasy?
my own personal pergatory….help Iam stuck somewhere between my old version’fantasies’ and new _yet unrealized ones…hence: my own personal pergatory….By fantasies i mean what i wish for in my life :” i really want to be a fireman when i growup”…it referes to what i really ‘want’ for myself and /or can work towards .. […]