i think i think i think too
much. insomnia, not bad..just periphial worriy and anxiety that is prolly slowly ( or not so slo these last few years..) eating away at my tummy lining..or clustering to form some appendage sized tumour.hi! Gd morning. nice talk allison.sorry.news style update:( for my stock taking sanity)im stuck in my head. mom is still in oc. […]
i dunno if i like it, but im bored and lacking in creativity.so wha is a new way of looking at my life that wont bum me out?without comparing to other places things situations.i need to change some area an di think a blog template, although a change, is not the place im looking for […]
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slept through newyears..how lucky.mom is down in san clemente, have to go get her. its pissing rain here, still.had a fun evening , the night before newyears , with vDf and d.still havent talked to patrick ,really. the second i did speak to him ( he was in a mtg) he sounded so sad)hope to […]
jesus fish
how eerie these last few days have been ,dont know if im correct in saying this..but it felt straight outta tha bible..if i knew what was in there…*** DISCLAIMER grew up w/liberal psuedo hippy parents…..my last biblical/ religious learning foray was my first communion(catholic) at age 6-I use it as a cultural(?) reference…not an official […]
vegas puts my body
vegas puts my body in a weird state; i am very anxiety riddled..yet about nuthing at all..(except perhaps , mom)has ‘happened’yet,i constantly feel as though i am on the verge of some …thing….?an idea ? a boy? ..great party? /creative burst? …… something…but the reality seems to be that i just want to get to […]
christmas day. i’m in vegas
its christmas day. im in vegas.again. kinda fun.sad.eerie/meloncholly creepy but good.mom kelly are across the hall..we are staying at TheHotelflew out last night , after minor emotional family drama,cs (rNDOMLY)CAME WITH US.THAT WAS FUN.he flew back this afternoon to tend to his dog.did a little stocking ceremony at lunchtime.last night we went gambling – both […]
how the hell am i
in canada
still in vancouver- well a hotel room in vancouver.-about to venture outside to get coffee-m is still sleeping- something that totally eluded me last night.im not bummed-just anxious, i dont know what i expect here- nothing.but it seems my emotions expect something.how weird.i like being here- safe in a hotel ,with someone from home(la home)knowing […]
i am in vancouver. with morgan.staying at the opus (same place we stayed with APC last time) a little different trip, though.we flew up after a crazy weekend(for me_not him)friday eve went out w/ girls. long and convaluted-ish. felt very pissed off and like i let the good part sgo by being in a situation […]
although i have lots to say i have lame finger skills right now.i wish i could pour out tons of shit.in regards to missing dad reference yesterday:weird.. barnone..one of the hardest days i ve ever had with the issue of dad not being herei was working, scanning a whole bunch..and i thought id throw a […]