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slept in again
slept in again-felt so good.ns came and took me for coffe. he said the show yesterday was unbelievable-so envious-he had an amazing day/night.sounds like-topped off with courtney love buyiung him in and out burger and flashing him her chest…crazy life.i ate with ag and mi last night then sat with mj and wayne till 2am-fun.-mellow.max…
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feeling
feeling much anxiety;like i do not know my place in the world and it scares me to no end. i wonder f it is the time of month coupled with my mom with everything else that is going down. i am going to be thirty in one month., that doesn’t freak me out. what freaks…
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who i is
These are the beginning thoughts on what i am about. what i am doing..if anyone gets the wearwithall to read any of this ..sorry. or whatever. Idon’t know. i feel like i need to write and as i am in front of my machine at almost all times-of late..it seems the right medium.so here .…
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emailed l. ahh well . i miss him. point blank. i …
emailed l. ahh well . i miss him. point blank. i feel better; like a pressure is off ,now that i sent an email. i feel like we were in this stand off…El Silencio. went to the lc this am. actually got there early – sat with db, who is back from nyc for the…
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fellin’ ok
feel okay.. woke early, went downtown w/La.then met lou for coffee,then worked out for quite awhile. now @.home,d and a are here.cleaning lady was here.everything is lovely. (clean&tidy lovely,that is..) still in gripping fear over all my situations.must meditate or something.fuckin hell. this sux sooo much. i am living like a robot. you aren’t supposed…
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so sad and angry
i am so sad and angry i don’t know when this is going to stop i want to smoke more than i’ve ever wanted to do anyfuckingthing in my life. i’m so gaddamned irratating.(oops freudian slip?meant to say irratated..) i am supposed to be at ap’s grammy party, then to karaoke. whatever..i’m still in my…
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patricks bday
blogger.com patrick’s bday today i am so self obsessed..i call to wish him a happy bday and talk about myself the whole time. it’s pissing rain, feel’s like home. i can’t decide if iam depressed or angry i know i’m confused it has everything to do with quitting smoking and a little to do with…
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NIGHT RIDER by the BEST DOORMAN EVER
Is this a familiar scenario? You’re standing in line outside what you hear is a cool club and the doorman, who looks like a complete asshole, is nodding in people who are infinitely less cool than you. Everyone seems to fucking know the guy. The longer you wait, the more incensed you are that you’ve…