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offline
wow. been offline for a week-crazy. good to be back, but a nessacary break.too much going on …and yet… not enough at the same time…ya fel me? went to laguna for the pageant of the masters on sunday; with Leland and famille…fun nice cool. tool was here last night. in sd this eve-we were going…
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good weird
haven’t written in so long-things are weird-good weird, i guess. i have noticed how much i have actually changed through this past year . i mean i know i ‘grew’ or whatever. but i am aware that , organically , i am different-my actual responses and actions and motivating factors are totally new and different.my…
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happiness
feel so much happiness right now-slept in -parties were lame. i was very shy as usual and felt awkward at the aids thing-then we left and went to the big party- someone at the first party asked me to go hear their friends band play at the martini lounge..ambrsea. how odd and random. would have…
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jlh leaving LA
jlh spoke this am. it was so sad and happy . i am so happy she is my friend. i trust her . ie was really upset and it was touching.brkfst at the coffee house, now to cb then jlh’s for one last gd’bye and then taking irwin and max on a walk and then…
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i am nuts
i am nuts-i feel like my mother is going to make me have a nervous bdshe doesnt do anything-it’s the buttons she pushes(she INSTALLED) by ……….breathing..
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so much
so much -going to sb this weekend . mom is her. max staying with jc -i am a bit insane with everthing and everyone-but i feel good-saw et and b this am at urth. feel good. like i am free of something enormous. i am ready
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dk came over
dk came over and hung out this eve. nice to see him. walked the dog-went up the street and met p with ss mj jo and mi-went to jones’s for dinner and then i went to ns’s to help plan his trip.he’s so funny. very much a perfectionist, i think. feel alright, albeit a bit…
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lc2 this am
lc2 this am. breakfast at urth w/ jc and hil.haven’t seen hil in forever. it was very good to see her.max came with -he is having SEVERE seperation anxiety. i didn’t even get to set foot in the meeting. oh well.today i’m helping ns w/ computer shit. and maybe lunch w/ lak.or mi.
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i want to not
i want to not go to bed on a sour note. i want to sleep well and wake up with gratitude and love in my heart . i feel very vulnerable, as i have so much over the last 6 months-not weak, just open and sensitive. i want to use these lessons in my life…
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china town
went to china town -ate with wayne and mj and mike d.he’s funny. same birthday as me. went to les duex. so crowded. saw cuteboy.he’s kinda lame. everyone is right now. i don’t know what is going on with me. i am in such an odd place. i was so annoyed by people in general…
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just when
just when i feel good and as though i am over all past grievances-i get hit with something from left field.ran into vh on larchmont and came across the fact that we both knew someone in common and she was seriously crushing on him…ykw. god, i felt so weird and icky. it made me feel…
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vespa party
vespa party was a lot of fun.