i am so overjoyed to have figured out how to post this to my site that i have no idea what to write it’s sunday april 22nd. last night marked the beg. of my ‘saturn return'(what??!!) i ‘ll be 30..in 39 days. holy shit that’s unbelievable. i live alone(finally) i am working sort of more…

i feel ready to *do* sumthing. i want to paint or finish my site, or just be creative. i get so trapped in this state, i end up organizing and thinking waaay too much. i am doing the procrastination thing by writing in here. Interseting concept:this online journal..i wonder what i am doing it for..i…

i had some mistaken thoughts today. i think i have them alot. i get an idae in my mind and because i think about it so much, i believe it to be true. anyway, today it was this: living here is a bit like being in highschool. you can be cool and popular one day…

k.FINALLY got up and went to lc this am.had breakfast with the cute boy. hmmm.rejuvenating and inspiring (to get me to more of these morning meetings) feel kinda hungover today. going to an engagement party for dr and c. have no real idea who will be there..as in :who i will know. feel nervous, but…

i just remembered why it is i live here I mean, i used to know why.. the whole time i was living at the beach and after i moved to this place..i was constantly graateful and filled with a sense of joy-sheerly from walking to my car and feeling the air and the warmth, in…

>listening to that jupiter song by train(?)it gets me feelling very …dramatic. no, just ..i dontknow..something..i feel alot of things at present. it’s so nice out today. got email from ca . he is so great. i can’t believe that i get myself in these weird mind frames that cause me to think such crappy…

heavy loadwhatthefuckever,just uploaded this whole thingamajiggyto my site and i can’t get it to work. mutherfuchar

feel reallly fucking happy today. the light is inspiring. la rules today.i am in no fear.well some apprehension,but healthy. a record company called about ajob to do album covers. yeah. damned cool.weird.i manifested this whole career out of nothing. a computer and some bullshitting.marvelous, i must say. i am not in ‘contact’ perse, with any…