weird week thus far
weird week thus far. ch and i finally ‘talked’ very pleasant exchange.. over with . awesome having mjk back in town -ie arrives home tomorrow.still running alot. took a day off and went a little nuts. but yesterday got back in the swing of thingsspent the whole day with lala…nice. drove around did errands etc. […]
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went for dinner with mjk and jen and his dad and a bunch of other friends of theirs from az. sooo good to see mjk. i missed him soo much. i cant believe the way i feel around my friends sometimes. the hapiness just floors me. i feel full. ns and cr were there too..cr […]
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sunday morning with hil…went to market on larch got kettle corn and mags. taking a day off from excersice. fewf. i have probably run about 30 miles in 5 days. or something like that. my poor knees. went to the mtg this am. pretty good. brkfast with trevor and micheal and scott and ss and […]
spiral staircase
sitting on a spiral staircase, i am. looking down at the same situation i have been in so many time s(3x..) in this last 3 1/2 years. how do i ddraw these situations in/ i wonder. i am ok had great night. saw owen…..went to a couple parties. i wonder why it is that ch […]
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ahhelp my site is fucked up
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ok so if u read all the last 5 enteries it seems a bit like i am vacilating. but what is happening is this: i let things slide , i take the blame for other peoples behaviour all the time. i assume the role of the crazy one or the dramtic one. i ‘m not […]
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what?
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i cant really believe this has happened again. this dreadful fucking feeling in my gut. but what i cant really trully belive is that i am ok. i am not without alot of perspective.i see it for what it is. not too personal. although the part of me that remembers sweetness and goodness in someones […]
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so much good stuff right now. i feel happy and full of energy. went to malibu last night. fun. then dinner w/ lala and dk and ns. i had such a nice night. dont feel scared or weird or all those yucky things that i felt before when i quit smoking. feel overwhelmed when iit […]
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these are the questions posed to me from my linkdup pal through blogger insider. 1. What made you decide to quit smoking? found out that it was all a lie….also,vanity and health and relationship with nonsmoker was getting touchy cause of my smoking. How long had you been a smoker? 16 years How long since […]
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hmm. revelation of the day:i don’t think i should try to be part of ch’s life unless invited. i see my part in acting like a freak. i got overwhelmed with not smoking and not feeling ‘protected’ or whatever.. anyway i put alot of shit on him last night that he didnt deserve-at all. poor […]
mick jagger
ch and i went the set of mick jaggers video on sat night. to give him a bunch of teenage milllionaire shirts he loved them alot. cool. jg was the main girl in the vid. she looked great . had a nice visit with her.