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odd
odd not having cole around. i miss her alot..even when she was here..she felt like she wasnt..really here.i dunno. changes shifts always. spiral in out.whatever. i am feeling like i am in the divine oder of my life right now. let go of control all the time. it will (IS) working out for me..perfectly. i…
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nice am
nice am. woke went to ie’s hung with erwin and cat(oops forgot his name) then up to mjk’s to hang with those cats and fish. then to lc ..left as i have heard the speaker before.went to meet rf and her italian diver boy/man. at urth. then home . got the garage cleaned out finally…
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campfreddie this eve
campfreddie this eve.umm. well . it was fun. i danced alot. ahmet was great.he sang ‘feel like making luv.”so awesome. bereal was there. sang rocksupahstar. very cool. also nika costa.more tomorrow..im too tired
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odd quiet weekend
odd quiet weekend. woke sat and went met z at virgin with jam. then coffee and took jam to therapy. then met rf and her italian hottie , then to work till 1 30. then to see solaris with my husband. good . then swingers with df and mw. then movies at home. worked on…
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open letter to myself
open letter to myself: how blessed r u? being able to hang out with the awesome loving fun people i do..and have a great home for me and my husband..and have a great car and be able to have people over for dinner (like this eve)and go to a party and leave and go to…
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i am officially insomniatic(sp?)
i am officially insomniatic. 5 days w/out sleep. its insane. i just went for a swim..all misty out and shit. cool.my hearing is shot. its like i was at a concert last night and they (my ears) are still ‘ringing’ cept the ringing is loud and fuzzy and sharp-all at oncedont know quite what to…
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its not like i wasn’t warned
feel odd. havent reallly slept the last few days..a lot on my mind, i guess.or not enough maybe?good weekend..as sent me an email wondering what was wrong…i didnt have the strength to tell her i knew what she had said about me. i am already so hurt and perplexed by all this. hil and i…
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trying it all again
i m trying it all again. everything. i am starting to write ( i promise myself) more consistantly and draw and paint. make stuff.i feel very off right now..but sort of in a good kooky kind of way. no sleep for 3 days/nights.almost like being on acid. a little less nerve wracking, though.i have to…
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full moon made me edgy
full moon made me edgy and weird. swam naked with the girls and did yoga under the full moon. cool outside at the house. weird energy.
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have babies and eat fruit
sd w/ ns and hil -lots of people there. crowded. sat with ad and jg. sex in the city with j and e . nice mellow eve. too much food though. full. lala and coleycole are back. mjk called -hes back tomorrow . on my run today i kept having flashes of things i want…
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great weekend.
went to virgin in the am with jg.then to breakfast with ie etc. then yoga and alittle work.ch came by in the eve. we fooled around on his website then he took me to dinner…at the indian place. very nice to be arounnd him. sometimes it is easier to be with someone when there is…