brother is here.
brother is here. have yet to see him. spent the a.m. with brent at the hospital. i don’t know why i feel so okay with being there. i am not scared of that enviroment- i am scared of boredom and what that does to me,essentially.how do i get to a place of prespective. purpose and […]
sometimes i am so perplexed by my life
sometimes i am so perplexed by my life and where i fit in it. i know who is important to me and i know where my intentions lie…(good, mostly) i just get a feeling sometimes that i am living someone elses life and i got here by mistake and ‘they'(the big collective ‘they’..)are going to […]
fall 2001-post tool
it’s friday and i slept almost all day..got home around 2 am, the show last night was amazing. went with ie and hil mj ag ra lel etc. all of la was there-our whole section was “comp ” seating-mjk made some funny refrences to the hollywood vermon. saw et , finally met her friend robin, […]
euro trasho centralo
nico’s bady this eve at le dome…euro trasho centralo…but i must say nico had quite the crew show uo for him- it was nice- bw and the boys dropped by later- ie and sl and hil and ad and rs and jg and ah etc were all there. actually, ad and rs came outr last […]
so much fun stuff
so much fun stuff coming up- janes addiction, nico bady-lou’s bday-tool-hawaii…oh my goodness, i am excited. this eve i have to go to a burberry store party w/ jg..but it will be over early -then dinner w/ah and hil(?) and then dancing!! yeah.
nics to fix
went to ns’s helped him set up computer. he is having a hard time …he and k broke up on sunday and he is struggling to work through it. i admire him very much. he is trying to do the right thing for himself and ‘grrow’ for lack of a better term… it’s awesome to […]
not having a tv is good
not having a tv is good- i was at ie’s all day yesterday glued to it. today feels more comfortable(my thinking, that is..)i am less scattered and more “in my body’ -if you will.. i guess the events of yesterday ,the HOROR of what happened, has sunk in somewhat- what i am really aware of […]
seems so pious
seems so pious to think about filling in the details of my life over the last few days- today seems like a dream- the first call i got was from ie at 6;50am then i went to the lc and it was weird. eerie and grey…which in and of itself isn’t wierd,because the weather has […]
fucking fantastic weekend
what a fucking fantastic weekend i have had….thursday eve i met jk ,ie,ab, liza ,lel and ag for dinner-then ie mjk ag and i went to crazy girls(??!!) it was really fun(ny) mjk is so much fun-then spent all day friday up at his house by the pool – swimming etc.then he cam e to […]
relatively stress-less
my life feels full and good right now-it is all based on the relationships i have in my life- they are all relatively stress and maintainence free. i think this is the first time in my life i don’t have high maintainence people around me-like when i got freaked and stressed today everyone around me […]
viper-room and rs/gap thingy
went to see a band at the viper room on tuesday..w/ ie and candace and billy and draven and a few others i just met.hung out with j at ie’s for a minute-very nervous and uncomfortable(felt ‘set-up’)had fun at rollingstone/gap thing on thursday eve.brian was there- always have fun with him.met the sexiest man -well..didn’t […]
offline
wow. been offline for a week-crazy. good to be back, but a nessacary break.too much going on …and yet… not enough at the same time…ya fel me? went to laguna for the pageant of the masters on sunday; with Leland and famille…fun nice cool. tool was here last night. in sd this eve-we were going […]