campfreddie this eve
campfreddie this eve.umm. well . it was fun. i danced alot. ahmet was great.he sang ‘feel like making luv.”so awesome. bereal was there. sang rocksupahstar. very cool. also nika costa.more tomorrow..im too tired
see my life
i see my life quite clearly right now. i amno longer upset about cole. i am fullof love and forgivness both for me and everyone else. i know i am not a bad friend ’cause i have never showed up or been as present as i have been for someone as i have in the […]
odd quiet weekend
odd quiet weekend. woke sat and went met z at virgin with jam. then coffee and took jam to therapy. then met rf and her italian hottie , then to work till 1 30. then to see solaris with my husband. good . then swingers with df and mw. then movies at home. worked on […]
fuckits
evrything seems weird and sad. spent the day w/jam and z and they are both devasted. so i took on some of this..also cole is very over me. aparently i have been a really bad friend and she feels hurt and angry at me. nothing i can do.oh well..i guess no party this eve,i cant […]
open letter to myself
open letter to myself: how blessed r u? being able to hang out with the awesome loving fun people i do..and have a great home for me and my husband..and have a great car and be able to have people over for dinner (like this eve)and go to a party and leave and go to […]
worst case scenario
please press play for posts theme song- it enhances the reading of my writing; _ PICTURE THIS, if you will: YOU( or me in this scenario) have terrible mood-swing style PMS- and Agree to drive 4 LA based control freak friends (on American thanksgiving weekend), < from LA to san diego , to an arena […]
my lead role
oh my . life is so weird . my new thing is that we are living in our own movies..starring roles vary but we are always the lead character..so we have to make use of who else has been cast..very selfcentered..but its motivating me to do stuff that i wouldnt do..like ask for what i […]
feelin’ california ( good)
feeling good. had awesome productive busy day -worked -ran(2x’s)worked mtg-ran-met tc-met cole…great chats .ns is out of his place and staying with us and jodi..gk is hanging alot more…very nice to have him around again.went to the nic mtg last night saw ch..he seemed good.went with jd..dinner after then met deano les duex..felt too unsocial. […]
is it possible
is it possible to love a part of someone and despise another..i dont thinkit’s very healthy..but sometimes it is how i feel about my husband.i love him very much and maybe in some weird way..more than anyone..but i also cant stand the way he behaves sometimes and the weird insecure behaviour that he plays out […]
weekend sleepover
had a weekend sleepover at the house…so much fun. dinner and swimming and watching taxicab confessions and everyone macking ..or trying to at least.. funnywell. i am getting married. september..i guess.jd made m his ring and brought it to the show we went to this eve,looks awesome.a guy is very sexy with wed ringt on,;crazy […]
living an odd life
hmm. i am living an odd life right now.good confusing funny odd scary(A little)spent the entire week or so w/ sp mw cant articulate what that means right now..all very easy, though.saw coleycole this eve, totally lost it laughing at the meeting this eve.havent laughed like that in soo long.felt good. went to dinner then […]
wild week
woah. wild week. got a concussion on monday afternoon. slept and sick for a few days…hung out with ms all week.hes moving in..this weekend: went to re ‘s bday at thw wilt chamberlain house..it was weird and fun.i was with ns all weekend..hes been bummed, went to rodeo, selby AND sundowners.tonght i went to les […]