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weird evening
what a weird evening. went to bed at 8. woke at 3ish. watched tv etc. went back to bed . ? sooo confused. weird odd feel very disillusioned with things. certain things. other things are good. i am just trying to figure out what is really going on
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the fine line
if there is such a line between insanity andd sane-ness…i sat in a room this evening where it would have been drawn.from where i sat , in some what saness i watched across the floor as completely insane people spoke in ways that sort of made sense.i spoke at a meeting and the sharing afterwards…
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fall 2001-post tool
it’s friday and i slept almost all day..got home around 2 am, the show last night was amazing. went with ie and hil mj ag ra lel etc. all of la was there-our whole section was “comp ” seating-mjk made some funny refrences to the hollywood vermon. saw et , finally met her friend robin,…
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euro trasho centralo
nico’s bady this eve at le dome…euro trasho centralo…but i must say nico had quite the crew show uo for him- it was nice- bw and the boys dropped by later- ie and sl and hil and ad and rs and jg and ah etc were all there. actually, ad and rs came outr last…
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fucking fantastic weekend
what a fucking fantastic weekend i have had….thursday eve i met jk ,ie,ab, liza ,lel and ag for dinner-then ie mjk ag and i went to crazy girls(??!!) it was really fun(ny) mjk is so much fun-then spent all day friday up at his house by the pool – swimming etc.then he cam e to…
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relatively stress-less
my life feels full and good right now-it is all based on the relationships i have in my life- they are all relatively stress and maintainence free. i think this is the first time in my life i don’t have high maintainence people around me-like when i got freaked and stressed today everyone around me…
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offline
wow. been offline for a week-crazy. good to be back, but a nessacary break.too much going on …and yet… not enough at the same time…ya fel me? went to laguna for the pageant of the masters on sunday; with Leland and famille…fun nice cool. tool was here last night. in sd this eve-we were going…
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good weird
haven’t written in so long-things are weird-good weird, i guess. i have noticed how much i have actually changed through this past year . i mean i know i ‘grew’ or whatever. but i am aware that , organically , i am different-my actual responses and actions and motivating factors are totally new and different.my…
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happiness
feel so much happiness right now-slept in -parties were lame. i was very shy as usual and felt awkward at the aids thing-then we left and went to the big party- someone at the first party asked me to go hear their friends band play at the martini lounge..ambrsea. how odd and random. would have…
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jlh leaving LA
jlh spoke this am. it was so sad and happy . i am so happy she is my friend. i trust her . ie was really upset and it was touching.brkfst at the coffee house, now to cb then jlh’s for one last gd’bye and then taking irwin and max on a walk and then…
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i am nuts
i am nuts-i feel like my mother is going to make me have a nervous bdshe doesnt do anything-it’s the buttons she pushes(she INSTALLED) by ……….breathing..
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so much
so much -going to sb this weekend . mom is her. max staying with jc -i am a bit insane with everthing and everyone-but i feel good-saw et and b this am at urth. feel good. like i am free of something enormous. i am ready