Words To live by ( or die trying..no pun) From Steve Jobs’ 2005 Stanford Commencement Address:
Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
…Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.
I am so devasted by the death of the doggie Lamma-aka-Helmie- the helmunster…. …so sad that i havent been able to write a post about him and aboout how he affected me- i cant even really do it now.. but here’s an attempt: Helmie and i met during one of my saddest periods in life…and from the first tme we had eye contact: him looking up at me w/ his babydog eyes, and the pure joy he had ..whenever he saw me…saved my life- he loved me and NEVER faked he didnt.
never faltered from just wanting to “get small”
and,in my life, when shitty was shitty – it was always helmie i wanted to see.
he made me feel loved. and i cant stand that i wont see him getting all small as he pranced down the walk when i got there…or the forlorn glances when i was leaving..
Helmut Lohner i love you and thank you dloh, for bringing helmut into my life.
to this here website,(taintme)-The lifehacker.com site been the absolute fav/bestEver/ go-to site -barnone.
A source of much inspiration , frequent reblogging and general nerd/hack awesomeness …I’ve found projects that spoke to the hybrid nerd in me ..projects i would actually carry out- start to finish…The site filled a gap that is/was extremely specific to my personality type….( see here for a description…of the male vs of my type) This site was my golden ticket -Gina Trapina my willawonka -So , around a year and a half ago, when she…, Founder/Editor Gina ,handed over the rains, i was a little bummed..but still high on the few years of overindulgent fixes for my machack dependancy.. . i wasn’t that REALLY worried.. i mean it was the site …and i was intrigued- as the site had already become more a community feedback / multi-author depot- since it’s beginnings–mixing hardcore mac tweaks with google fixes and hand-crafted firefox addons.
I trusted the editor shift , as the new lifehacker flow that had been setup was starting to help me understand a lil about Ubuntu and even enjoying a little peecee knowledge, i was inadvertantly picking up -
But ..OFCOURSE as with all good things…..lifehacker was not to be as it had once been…slowly…..well not to me…in my hyper vs.-the shift was immeadiate..but regardless of my minds’ over-dramtization, a shift of heavy peecee leanings variety has taken place-
i noticed whenever i opened my feedreader..anticipating a daily project/fix/fact….i increasingly found myself feeling annoyed-as i was seemingly more-than-not greeted with “No New Posts” or posts tagged “Windows Only”
- at first i was second guessing myself- thinking/rationalizing my annoyance at my own sillines…Due to Gina’s over-indulgent mac favoritism…and i just needed to get used to the new editor’s balance of pc/mac posts…
but it has been well over a year since Gina handed it over- and although im sure there are many new lh fans and many old fans pleased-as-punch about the flavour shift… sadly- i am not one- and today, with a sad finger.. i finally hit my delete subscription button-because not only do i rarley get any subscribed feed updates(mac) – but this is the the last one i got , prior to hitting the FAIL button:
i felt momentarily touched …as if i were special,
when i received***
the sweet message below from an admirer:
Hey
am Alice,i came across your profile now when i was brousing the
internet, and you really freakm me, My dear, i decided to contact you.
i really want to have a good friendship with you. I will be very happy,
If you can write to my e-mail address so we can get to know each other
better,and i well give you my pictures and allso tell you more about me
ok, my email is [email protected] maybe we can start from
here,Beside i have something specia i want to discusse with you,
that i can write and send it to you and peace,
My email is [email protected],
Alice
i felt un special when i googled that email address
*** i before e except after c
you told me i should make something of this, of my site, that i really “had” something.Thanks.
it was a really cool thing for you to say.
and i appreciate your input.
the thing is, that day, when you told me that , that i should do something with this, i really wanted to talk about that , in depth, over coffee, and then dinner, to feel like i mattered to you.
to be someone you were excited to hangout with.
more than just a person you had to quickly spend a minute with.
i wanted to tell you how awful i felt inside and how scared i was. but the thing is i was scared, so fucking scared, that you would be mad at me and lash out at me.
or that you wouldnt hear me.
so i got you to where you wanted to really be. not with me. but with your friends, who seem so cool and fun. and i left you there. and i drove home , feeling sadder than i had ever felt in my adult life.
knowing you had no idea how important you were to me, or worse, if you did, you didnt really care.
i am publishing this because maybe you will read it and understand me a little better.
i hope so.
i hope you dont get angry.
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