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odd weird sad feeling has struck ..or crept up on me this saturday afternoon.awesome visit with mj at fred segal..lunch shopping (bought myself grossly overpriced sunglasses.)he bought me some awesome sexy perfume.ss came over later we shot the shit etc.but now i am here and it is sunny and inbetween day and night..nuthing to do […]
i am single
i am single . i am sorta still sad. not sad in an upset i want him back kind of way…more just sad that i dot get to watch forensic files and have sex and silly stuff. i know i will again..its just that i got used to ch. oh well.bw’s bday last night. cr […]
forensic files and sex
i am single . i am sorta still sad. not sad in an upset i want him back kind of way…more just sad that i dot get to watch forensic files and have sex and silly stuff. i know i will again..its just that i got used to ch.oh well.bw’s bday last night. cr dd […]
dentist hell today
dentist hell today. i have been so bad about writing in here.mjk is back…makes me happy.i actually missed him quite a bit.i am trying to think about what has happened of late..ryan is on the cover of t&c mag…whatever that means. weird.it was such a short time ago that she was sleeping on the floor […]
fucking brutal weekend
fucking brutal weekend.friday rodeo..then 101. sat. malibu neighbourhood shit. then cs made me aweome dinner at his awesome apartment and then we watched a movie and i slept there. woke up feeling sick as a dog. then went to 11 45 mtg met jameela there and had brkfst with lots of people -lel and his […]
lame about writing
still lame about writing. b is moving into a house wit h ns. i am having a good productive day. up met cole on larchmont . home. picked up at hs. then met paula at 101 and e came. then home then i am running put to ch’s house. should be a huge run. i […]
trying it all again
i m trying it all again. everything. i am starting to write ( i promise myself) more consistantly and draw and paint. make stuff.i feel very off right now..but sort of in a good kooky kind of way. no sleep for 3 days/nights.almost like being on acid. a little less nerve wracking, though.i have to […]
serious insomnia
i have serious insomnia- havent slept more than 5 minutes…havent had this in forever. weekend wasgood.
easter 2002
weekend easter…going to malibu for lunch etc and speaking at 6 30 . spent the night with ch and the met e at three and g . hate that meeting. well… i dont hateit.. i just think it isnt for me.
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mom here. .went to lunch with ns . then shopping. last night we went to rodeo. good. cept i felt very emotional due to menstrual situation. ch was alright.not overly nice to me . i got fed up last night. i was at dinner and everyone was giving me a hard time…why didnt i ever […]
mom is here
mom is here. good. she is staying with me… mjk is off to arizona.i am teaching though still..at the loft. ran this am. felt good as i havent run in days. dont know if i should go to ps or not.dont feel too much like it but it could be fun for a day. rodeo […]
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ok so this week has been extrodinarry. monday 60 days off cigarettes. ch was so sweet at the mtg. (rare) then to dinner with charlie finn and ns2 and jo. then to meet mjk at les duex..bad there bad scene. tuesday was good. i had so much fun with ch tues eve, we went for […]