I am so devasted by the death of the doggie Lamma-aka-Helmie- the helmunster…. …so sad that i havent been able to write a post about him and aboout how he affected me- i cant even really do it now.. but here’s an attempt: Helmie and i met during one of my saddest periods in life…and from the first tme we had eye contact: him looking up at me w/ his babydog eyes, and the pure joy he had ..whenever he saw me…saved my life- he loved me and NEVER faked he didnt.

never faltered from just wanting to “get small”

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and,in my life, when shitty was shitty – it was always helmie i wanted to see.
he made me feel loved. and i cant stand that i wont see him getting all small as he pranced down the walk when i got there…or the forlorn glances when i was leaving..

Helmut Lohner i love you and thank you dloh, for bringing helmut into my life.